It is quiet inside. There is a serenity within. The static that once persisted, now is notably absent. It is calm inside. There is a stillness there. The waves that once crashed, now are pleasantly subdued. It is empty inside. There is a space between. The muck that once swilled, now is washed away. An... Continue Reading →
In the Frame
Delving through the recesses of my mind, I came across a picture frame. The photo within was of a small boy, who had a mop of platinum white hair, and ice-cream on his face. He was clearly enjoying himself. Yet see here, the edges of the frame are thin and frayed, with streaks of grey... Continue Reading →
Idol Dreams
I dreamed of a celebrity, just the other day. Hounded by the paparazzi, with little to say. The sounds of voices was immense, with silly requests. The people tightly packed, intense. Standing room at best. Yet unfazed he was as he walked, chewing on a sweet, through the crazed and mad hordes that squawked, as... Continue Reading →
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A sense of numbness. A quietness of the mind. A stillness of the heart. A touch of the surreal. The world is changing, revolving, turning. I feel motionless, muffled, isolated. The transition has finally come. If imagination had a heart beat, Mine would be flat lining. The calm before the storm. The phoenix shall rise.
Expectations vs Reality
When one's expectations are reduced to zero, one really appreciates everything one does have. Stephen Hawking I have said before that I personally believe Expectations to be a measure of failure, not success. They establish a virtual line-in-the-sand where one side is disappointment, the other enjoyment. Another way to look at it is as rigid,... Continue Reading →
Mind Ablaze
Mental fires of industry. Smoke and steam leaking from ears. Carbon footprints on the soul. The unsupervised automata of conditioned thought. Toxic. Like 1000 monkeys on typewriters. Random nonsense. Sometimes something sensible. Rarely very useful. Chaos. Clawing back control. Regulating the automata. Firing the Monkeys. Clean away the clutter. Peace. Learning a new approach. The... Continue Reading →
Solving Hay Fever
In my earlier series on depression, A Darker Path, I mentioned the difficulties I had with hay fever, and sort of suggested that it contributed to my depression. Well, of all the discussion that my series generated, one was how I managed to get over my affliction, because for those who know me in the... Continue Reading →
Waiting in the Green Room
Either filming or doing a stage show, often it is the small social moments in the green room that, as an actor, you walk away remembering most of all. I can honestly say that I have met so many wonderful people, and learnt an incredible amount from the time spent waiting in the Green Room.
To the Applicant
I sit here waiting for you to show. I guess you really didn't want the job. Would have been nice to let me know, 'cause now I think you must be a snob. - The Casting Director
Uncertain
Following your dreams. We keep telling each other to do this. Don't give up on your dreams, living the dream life, or other variations of the theme. I've come to the realisation that this idea can be just as dangerous as the overly negative "realistic" phrases such as "you'll never make a living" or "it's... Continue Reading →
