An aging ham ponders life
Writing this, even thinking this, is not easy. I promised myself to be honest not only with my friends, but with myself, but this has been difficult... to get started. I have discussed this with a few, and once I get started it's like a rocket in space. It keeps going under its own inertia.... Continue Reading →
Originally posted on http://www.fearlessinc.com.au Question: What is a Man? The definition of a man is an evolving concept. It is influenced by changing understandings of our physiology and psychology. There is also fashionable trends that can influence what it means to be a man. For a young man, this can be very confusing. Add into... Continue Reading →
Mansplaining: to explain something to someone, typically a man to woman, in a manner regarded as condescending or patronising. I am not about to, so don't worry, but I am seeing this term, and the actions of the definition therein far too often. It is the Counter Wife/Women-is-always-right movement I suppose, which is a little... Continue Reading →
Following on from my most recent blog of a few days ago, I am reminded of a project I did back in my university days. My final year thesis was an investigation into the feasibility of teaching a subject on Creative Reasoning within scientific studies, and one of the points I discussed which was the... Continue Reading →
Today, I am reminded of one of my previous articles, about my panic attacks. It dawned on me that it has been quite a while since I've had one... almost since I posted the article. Yet I am confronted by another troubling issue. My dear daughter, who appears to be suffering from her own version... Continue Reading →
Some days I remember What I knew; How it felt; Who I was. Lonely voices tell me It was real; It was truth; It was me. I recall a poem I once wrote; I once felt; I once knew. I sit with others in a crowded room. I talk with others in a crowded room.... Continue Reading →
I left off at a very dark place with my last post on this, and it got darker. My emotions slowly grew in strength and I struggled to maintain my rational self. I began fantasising ways I could end my life, and yet leave wife and daughter able to carry on financially. I thought that... Continue Reading →
I had been staying with my grandmother in Mousehole, just outside of Penzance. A small fishing village, but the Penzance city centre was a short walk away, and I went there often. Life was good. I was seeing a lot of the Cornish landscape, and getting familiar with the lifestyle. I was invited to stay... Continue Reading →
After switching my degree from a pure Computing Science degree, to allow me more freedom with selecting electives, I did a year of Theatre Arts. That year, something shook loose inside. I discovered a different side to myself, a side I rather liked. It was playful, confident, unashamed, and funny. The inner clown was released.... Continue Reading →
A sense of numbness. A quietness of the mind. A stillness of the heart. A touch of the surreal. The world is changing, revolving, turning. I feel motionless, muffled, isolated. The transition has finally come. If imagination had a heart beat, Mine would be flat lining. The calm before the storm. The phoenix shall rise.
Reflection of a Ham 