An aging ham ponders life
A misunderstanding. A mistake. A trust broken. A sense of deep shame. A crack opens. A body it takes. A sense of falling. I accept the blame. A darkness awaits. A hole of my making. A silence of mind. A feeling of hollow. A cold breeze blows. A dread is waking. A friend returns. I... Continue Reading →
Originally posted on http://www.fearlessinc.com.au Question: What is a Man? The definition of a man is an evolving concept. It is influenced by changing understandings of our physiology and psychology. There is also fashionable trends that can influence what it means to be a man. For a young man, this can be very confusing. Add into... Continue Reading →
An interesting question was raised by a fellow director recently. Apparently, he has received rather nasty comments from actors who were not offered a part in a Community Theatre production. I would like to point out that I use Community Theatre in order to differentiate the scenario from paid/professional theatre, not to denigrate the community.... Continue Reading →
I was changing my view of the world. What I began to realise, and not just superficially, but innately, was just how much our world view is dependent on our individual perspectives. We aren't just all different, we see the world differently. Yet the evidence is all around us. I began to appreciate how much... Continue Reading →
Upon my return home, somewhat relieved, but bitterly disappointed in myself, some interesting stories unravelled over the course of a few weeks. First I need to explain one thing before getting to the meat. While I was in the UK, my cat had passed away. He was a gorgeous Russian Blue, and incredibly intelligent. When... Continue Reading →
I had been staying with my grandmother in Mousehole, just outside of Penzance. A small fishing village, but the Penzance city centre was a short walk away, and I went there often. Life was good. I was seeing a lot of the Cornish landscape, and getting familiar with the lifestyle. I was invited to stay... Continue Reading →
When one's expectations are reduced to zero, one really appreciates everything one does have. Stephen Hawking I have said before that I personally believe Expectations to be a measure of failure, not success. They establish a virtual line-in-the-sand where one side is disappointment, the other enjoyment. Another way to look at it is as rigid,... Continue Reading →
The ever growing continuation of Part 3. I was asked a curious question today, which I will post without edit. I've never really wanted to kill myself, I just didn't think there was any way out of the current situation other to end my life. Is that how you saw it? To escape the environment... Continue Reading →
I am not sure how to begin. This week has been... Traumatic? No, that's too dramatic. Eye opening! That sounds misleading. Extreme. Probably about the closest I guess. Extreme excitement. Extreme fear. Extreme determination. Extreme self-undermining. I knew things were going to be hard, or at least harder, as I change direction in my career.... Continue Reading →
I question I have been asked, and I am sure has been asked of many an actor, or even public speaker, is "How can you do that?" Usually quickly followed with "I'd be too scared." Usually some derivative of this discussion follows when you introduce yourself as an actor to "non-actors", and I use that... Continue Reading →
Reflection of a Ham 