An aging ham ponders life
Writing this, even thinking this, is not easy. I promised myself to be honest not only with my friends, but with myself, but this has been difficult... to get started. I have discussed this with a few, and once I get started it's like a rocket in space. It keeps going under its own inertia.... Continue Reading →
A misunderstanding. A mistake. A trust broken. A sense of deep shame. A crack opens. A body it takes. A sense of falling. I accept the blame. A darkness awaits. A hole of my making. A silence of mind. A feeling of hollow. A cold breeze blows. A dread is waking. A friend returns. I... Continue Reading →
Today, I am reminded of one of my previous articles, about my panic attacks. It dawned on me that it has been quite a while since I've had one... almost since I posted the article. Yet I am confronted by another troubling issue. My dear daughter, who appears to be suffering from her own version... Continue Reading →
One thing that has plagued me for years is strange little periods of a panic like fear. They can last minutes or for hours. At worst, they have lingered for a few days. It's like a sense that you have forgotten something really important, and something bad will happen if you don't figure it out... Continue Reading →
Reflection of a Ham 